_________you broke a promise_______
a lot has been going on lately: i've been trying to grow my nails out (and the farthest i've gotten is my pinky nails - i can't seem to stop myself from chewing on the other ones. damn my dad and brother/s!) me and jerika haven't been talking that much lately. it's like...i have all this crap in my head that i want to say to her while i'm sittin in third hour, but then after class gets out and we start talking in the hall, i lose everything that i'd been wanting to say. the longest conversation i've had w/ her in a while was on the phone saturday night. i don't know what's up with us lately. we made plans to go to the movies this past weekend, but that didn't work out because i called her, and she never answered her phone (i guess i could've made a better effort to phone her .. like later on, but i didn't. oh well.) my mom is crazy and "kidnapped" me from the house, so i've been staying w/ her lately. and it's so weird..the atmosphere at her house has been making me want to move to Florida with her and my stepbrother and stepfather. (i doubt S will go, but it's a possibility...hopefully). saw 'Man on Fire' two weekends ago. it was pretty awesome. usually, when me and grappa went and saw all the movies when i was younger, i would pick what we'd go see. (he's so indecisive, it's crazy.) sure, i picked 'Man on Fire' as the one we'd go see, but i think a movie like that was something more his style. like, we went and saw 'Hannibal' and 'Castaway' together, and those were both great movies, and yet they were his style. so see there? I can compromise. we've been doing Flashworks in HTML class recently. let me just say i hate it with a passion. i hated Dreamweaver, too. Those two get on my nerves so bad. stayed the night at my dad's this past weekend. that was fun. we watched 'Stuck on You' and Marvin and I and then Scooter and I watched a little bit of 'Love Don't Cost a Thing'. mom and I still have yet to finish our Scattergories game. she's so busy, though, that we don't have time, really. psssh. we'll make time, i'm sure. and Bear has been having nightmares lately. i don't know what's wrong with him. i mean, i know that dogs usually twitch when they dream, but the other night, he was softly barking. i had to shake him awake like 4 times because i was scared he was gonna have a heartattack or something. hmm...and i've been going to the library for a minute now. i must've read almost 100-and-some books this past year already and it's not even summertime! i told my mom that gramma is gonna be 'torturing' me this summer by making me ride the bike all the time, and my mom was like 'you're not gonna be here.' i just want her to quit with the Florida shit already! i'm torn between wanting to go, and not wanting to go. a couple people want me to stay, (as do i), yet another part of me wants to go enjoy my youth while i still have it, and go down to Florida to have new experiences. i mean, there'll be so much i'll be missing here if i leave, yet so much stuff i won't know about until someone tells me about it in Florida. i'm stuck between a rock and a hard place, and it sucks. well then, there you have it: the clutter that is my brain. hope that was a good update for you guys! Later.~Alysia*
fallen on Tuesday, May. 04, 2004, 7:10 p.m.