_________you broke a promise_______
I know I haven't written in here for awhile, so I figured I'd do so. Here I am! LOL I'm so not in a happy mood right now, so I don't know why I bother. :-( I'm not depressed or anything..or even pissed off...I'm just kind of in limbo. Everyone's got a job all of a sudden, so no one is available to take me anywhere. I'll start my new job Monday but that seems like light years away, you know? I've been so bored this week, that's why I'm hoping SOMEONE will be able to do something today. Otherwise I'll go jump off a cliff. Sigh.I had a thought a couple minutes ago: why do I take advantage of peoples' gullibility? Some people can sense what I'm doing, and call me on it, but others just do that "oh, right, *laugh*" thing, so they can play along with the joke when I know that really they're hating me at the moment. Uggh I wish this post wasn't so long already. I just can't help being mean lately. I've had fun times this summer, and fucked up times, and in-between times. This time, around the corner, seems to be looming in the "fucked up" zone, and I hate it. My boyfriend already called me on my anger -which he says gets spouted too often, and I'm starting to agree- and though that pissed me off, too, I'm glad he spoke up. I've been really bitchy to people. A new job won't really help, I don't think, except with the money issue. I got ahold of my roommate finally (by email) and now I've just got to call her and get to know her a bit, then start asking which of us should buy/bring which stuff to the dorm room for the fall. Conveniently, there's a Wal-Mart right around the way in the town where our college is located, so if we forget anything, it will be in there. I'm so happy! About that, anyway. There's been so much that I've been worried about lately. Like, I keep wondering if my boyfriend and I are going to break up when I leave for school. And this job..I don't know if it's going to work out. And my roommate seems nice, but what if she's a bitch in real life? Annnd yeah. I'm gonna go because my neck and back hurt from sitting in this computer chair for like 3 hours straight. Peace
Zeela
fallen on Friday, Jul. 21, 2006, 1:27 a.m.